tonight, just after dinner, i felt a little queasy and chilled, and wrapped myself in a blanket to lay down on the couch while E finished her meal and baba cleaned her place and prepared her medication. there was absolutely nothing more sublime than listening to him tease her and watching him put her medicine bottle on his head, causing her to dissolve into peels of laughter. ransom under the table, head cocked and listening or maybe just hoping for another morsel. it occurred to me just then, that even though i have to work for the next 2 days and won't be able to fully embrace celebrating such a beloved holiday, that there wasn't anything i could possibly be more thankful for than this little family we have become, and how much each member of it is so deeply cherished. i shed a couple of silent tears, wishing my mom could have seen how beautifully my life had unfolded. knowing how fiercely she would have loved both G and our daughter. it was one of those moments you wish you could freeze in time, or capture in living motion to replay over and over again as the years rush by. it only lasted moments, but in them i think i held the essence of what tomorrow means. i will carry that to work with me to share with my patients, and i will come home to the same happiness, over and over.