he will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart.
you owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.
what a blessing he is- my GOD what a blessing he is. soon i will wake up to his memory and thousands of photographs and he won't snore beside me and he won't lick my face any longer or greet me (............no..........) at the door. he won't greet me at the door, as he has every single night i've come home from work.
this is enough for now. look at that face! oh i wish you had met him, every one of you reading this page! and those kissable lips and that huggable body. why am i sitting here, typing into this void that will never be filled? he's in the other room, waiting for me. it's our time now. now! yes. yes yes yes. damn it.
**7/1/2011: a rough night... too rough and it took more than a couple hours for Ransom to be able to fall asleep. so, today we will say good-bye.
thank you for being here and for your kind words of encouragement and support. it is impossible to put into words the magnitude of what lies before us- but it is time for rest, for him- and to spend these last hours in his presence.
plus, he's asked for bacon and eggs for breakfast. it's only 5:45 AM, but he didn't get a lot of sleep and he's feeling for a smackerel of something good to eat. that's my buddy. that's my boy.