Monday, August 22, 2011


what is found there
(pentax k1000, kodak ektar 100, film)

today i sent her off to kindergarten, backpack and lunch pail in tow, tears streaming down her face, a ball full of nerves, her hand gripping mine tightly, not wanting to let go. how i wish i had the power to show her the future, one that will arrive in days- her exuberant smile and story telling, calling on her classmates by first and last name (oh to have her memory!)- and sharing their particular habits and favorite things. the warmth of her teacher's hugs. trips to the library. numbers and letters and homework! all the things she most loves about her new (big girl) school.

but for now i sit home a first time mom worried for her fear and sadness, clock watching and wondering if she ate enough lunch and played on the jungle gym. wondering if she found her smile today and trusting in it for tomorrow :)


  1. Hope your day wasn't soooo long and that you got to see a beautiful smile and surprised by how fast she warmed up to it all. Is it wrong that I am sitting here wishing the same for myself today. Hugs to you Mama.

  2. hope she had a great first day. XOXO

  3. I remember I was terrified the first day my first born had to board the bus for a short trip to Kindergarten the first day. We were tearful and scared and he marched up and got on without a look back and we were so happy we prepared him and devastated that he didn't even seem to care about leaving us. We followed the bus in our car the whole way to school and then met him there, where he came up to me, took my face in his hands and said it's ok mama you have to be brave....

    Children are so wise...and precious and glorious and I know you all made it through this very first wonderful, scary, day because you have so much love to see you through....

    and with a 25 and 20 year old, oh I miss those days.

  4. Hope her first day went well. We do this in a few weeks too...they grow up so fast...

  5. I hope your beautiful E had a great first day! My son just started his sophmore year in high school, but it seems like it was only yesterday when I was taking him to kindergarten!

  6. Such a big day for E....and mommy too! I'm sure she will have a great time and her sweet, sunny, outgoing personality will open a whole new world to her!