(pentax k1000, kodak ektar 100, film)
today i sent her off to kindergarten, backpack and lunch pail in tow, tears streaming down her face, a ball full of nerves, her hand gripping mine tightly, not wanting to let go. how i wish i had the power to show her the future, one that will arrive in days- her exuberant smile and story telling, calling on her classmates by first and last name (oh to have her memory!)- and sharing their particular habits and favorite things. the warmth of her teacher's hugs. trips to the library. numbers and letters and homework! all the things she most loves about her new (big girl) school.
but for now i sit home a first time mom worried for her fear and sadness, clock watching and wondering if she ate enough lunch and played on the jungle gym. wondering if she found her smile today and trusting in it for tomorrow :)