Saturday, September 25, 2010
new ground: Sept 25, 2009
when i reflect on this day, it's easy to believe that you- brave girl- landed in this country and were the only one who changed. a new citizenship, a new language, new sounds, foods, & experiences. you were introduced to your first dog and one beloved cat, who you now invite to the beach and China and instruct me to "hug", even though he left this earth a week after you became a Chinese-American. you met strangers who would be your extended family- aunts, uncles, cousins. you made friends and were escorted to one doctor after another. poked, prodded, xrayed and MRI-ed. you relished in new freedoms- a jungle gym, a swing set, your first swim.
but the truth is we all landed here foreigners, together. a new family of three (or 5, counting those lovable animals). we each had a new language to learn. a new way of living. our relationship was neonatal, barely in its infancy. though we'd seen glimpses of who we would become, and glimpses of who you are (no words can capture all of you E), we were timid, and careful, moving in time that was somehow stilled, navigating moments instead of days.
you were the bravest of us, e. you who were thrust into our arms only to be taken to the skies for 15 hours 2 weeks after that meeting- finding yourself an immigrant amidst strange natives. i cannot imagine your fear. i only know i am deeply and forever humbled by your grace and valor.
none of us, not your dad, not me, not you, have been the same since coming to this new home. though the landscape was familiar (for your dad and I), the scenery had changed, taken on new color and depth. the routes in and the routes to and from each other and ourselves had been re-mapped.
what a blessing to be in this territory. what a blessing to be building these roads and passages along side each other, to each other, and in our own directions.
what an honor to share this new ground as a family.
Posted by kitchu at 8:16 PM